Wellllll...

School was... fast. I got math homework. But only a bit. It was a good day, but it was hard not to notice some things.
Like how I was surrounded by empty desks in math. And how I could have moved and no one would have minded, but I almost... chose to be alone.
Or maybe I was too embarrassed to move. I guess I didn't want to look like I was desperate for company.
And like how I laughed at what David was saying most of the time, but... it's obvious we don't have the same feelings for each other.
And how I noticed how one girl's hair looked a lot like my friend's, and it sort of made me blank out for a bit. Because some things I want to forget, even though I probably won't. Ever.
How I realized that I wouldn't be alone in math class if my friend hadn't practically dropped out of my school.
How I realized how painfully awkward I must have looked in english.

And I'm angsting. Great. What the heck.
I hate when I get like this. When it feels like I'm just... not worthless, but pretty close.

Well, tomorrow's another day. :)
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Wooooo! I did it!

I did everything on the list AND worked on my story. Now all I have to do is go to Drama and sign up. :)
Also, things I need to get for school:
-New pencil case
-geometry set
-paper
I can't wait to go get my schedule and find out what classes I have this year.
OH! That reminds me.
-CALL FREYA.
Anyways, I know I'm taking drama, which is bloody fricken awesome. :)
I think I get moral, but I'm not sure. Either way, another thing that makes this year special is that my little brother is going to come this year! Vinny, my youngest brother. My other younger brother goes to a different school because he has autism and apparently our parents don't want us to get distracted, 'cause in elementary I was always going to check on him and stuff.
Which was fun. Joe's a cutie.
Both my bros are, but you can't have them, they're mine. *hug*

I AM HOME

Yay!
Not really.
But I've started writing a horror story with sangy, which is fun. I'm pretty proud of my first post. It was sufficiently creepy and explanatory and horror-ish.
I HAVE SO MUCH TO DO.
Okay, LIST:
-email drama group the list because goddamnit you've been putting this off for months
-download all the songs I heard while staying with Sangy that I liked
-charge my ipod
-download a whole bunch of songs onto my ipod
-update my fanfics and delete the really crappy one [well, the crappy part of the crappy one because the beginning isn't bad]
-unpack
-clean my room

As you can see... UGH.
Plus now that I'm back, all my problems are kind of in focus, and I'm reminded that I have to go to school soon.
I owe Sangy some licorice.

Bai bai.
-Carla,
semi-depressy and in a procrastinate-y mood. also very tired.